Tuesday, 29 March 2011

hEart ow HeaRt..

tonite i just feel so uneasy.. my past memory suddenly came across my mind.. YA Allah help me to forget it... 

then wat makes me so uneasy is i am sooooo patiently wait for sumbody.. huhuh!! waiting is hurting.. i dont want to wait any more.. just continue wit other thingss... 
nyway i dearly hate dis feeling..tgok! ade unsur kepincangan? ahahah...
then, i just make a statement! physic is my nightmare!
i donnt want to continue my study in field related to science.. i feel hopeless and give up already..
waahhh..thnx oke! sya ney cam ade perasaan tak bersyukur kan?kan?
:: nope, this is totally me! i will easily give up on sumthing! but i can quickly buckle up if sumone inspire me!
yeah! i need an inspiration.....
seyesly i feel like i am totally a looser after i left school.

-bcos i dun earn money! i am a GRAPERS...
-bcos i gain weight! ahaha.. even i just take my meal in small parttion!
-i have eyebags! syesly menci giler! ney sbb aku tido lewat tyap malamm....
-i feel lonely..especially when i stay in PONTIAN,ROMPIN.. cyesly really bored! i cant stand to stay in kampung more than 2 weeks.. pliss sumone take me awy..
-i have no fren stay near me.. my close frens live in mersing and sarawak and jaybee and pontian!
- i have to wait on may for my sister cominh home from sarawak!
- i dont go shopping a lot!~besela grapers.. x kan nak shuping lbey2...kopak dwet umi n abah..
_ i need to do a lot of house chores.. syesly sejibik cam org gaji..huhuhu
- aku x reti memandu kereta,menunggang kereta...
-aku mmg sunyi.,,, no frens, no boyfrens, no sisters utk bwk aku meronggeng and menerawang ke angkasa....

----dah la sya! enough! bersyukur la.. at least dpt blaja jd suri rumah..ahahah.. umi cakap pas spm aku mmg kene blaja care2 mguruskan rumah tngga,.. senang nak kawennn.. pas tu yg terbaeknye bley lak aku jawab.."nak kawen ape, calon habuk pon tadak,,,ahahah.. kesah pulak aku?

p/s  i know i really talking crap..once again.. but i am getting better now! wah! i mix both of languages.. naseb x kuar bhse sarawak aku..naseb...
tak pe nak kuarkan gak.. kamek nang rase kamek tok nang tedah.. nag looser abes eh.. sik tauk mok padah gney gik.. mun ada sepa2 mok nasihat ju la nasihat kamek tok.. tulung la ow.. heheheh..done!! one last thing, i dont edit anything or even preview dis post.. lantak kau jak cya...tata,,titi,,tutu,,,,

Friday, 25 March 2011


alhamdulillah.. finally its over.. everything happens for a reason...
my SPM result is fine! just fine.. Alhamdulillah.. nothing to cry.. no need to be sad or to cry..
i am totally TABULARASA... huhuhu.. i am neutral...
but than I am grateful with it.. Alhamdulillah..
i would lyke to express my gratitude to Allah for giving me such wonderful feeling..
-ko biar betol sya....yep,, sgt2 betol..tabularasa feeling is much better than boastful feeling or sad feeling.. which in either way we call it as neutral...
- actually still i feel sad with my biology and physic result.. i got B+ for both subject.. which my target is A..
but i didnt manage to get.. but what can i do then.... except if i want to check it again..
**malas okey.. bazir dwet saje..

** but really thanx to all my teachers and parents.. so do my dearest frens..
i still manage to score A+ for bm and pai..(waa.. ney le jadi ustazah ney)
then my english is A and GCE is B3(mayb i can further in TESL)
my sejarah A(really2 grateful because in my past dream i dream tht i score B for this subject..)
and i really like this things.. i manage to get A for mathematics.. finally!Alhmdulillah..
and as i expected i get B for both ad met and chemist..

+++++++fyi: TABULARASA is an english word.. i got it from my debate tcer.. it means dat u have no exact emotion tht u can express.. yah! i am in dat feelin now! ahahah

** now i just care about to further my study in either law or TESL.. huhuh.. i think i can go for both course..
both of the courses is ASASI..
** x kesah la english ney rojak ngan Malay.. im in learning process..sokong je la oke!

******p/s sya is trying her best to fluently write in english! yah.. i am trying my best as my writing skill is still moderate i think.. the best part is, if i got an offered for TESL at UiTM, i need to go for an interview! wahhh.. am i nuts? its oke la.. coz i really LOVE talking.. mostly i am talking crap~~` lalala..

``` well i knew my english is really not good.. but there a room for improvement right? READERS, DO support me okey! really appreciate ur kindness.. tata..

Tuesday, 8 March 2011



Sound  a great and cheerful title rite? ehehe.. why ae i choose dis title? of course bcos i am so happy! yaeh! i am really happy! i was totally  in cloud nine!! there must be a reason why i am so happy! hehehe..

 well, as in the title, i said that happiness could be as simple as ABC.. for me do what makes u happy.. be with whom make u smile.. heheh.. Alhamdulillah a great thanx and gratitude to Allah the Mighty for giving me this opportunity to feel such happiness..

"Happiness lies in the joy of achievement and the thrill of creative effort." Franklin Roosevelt"
 hapiness is similarly related to kindness.. well it is really true!! trust me.. when you do good to anybody you will always feel happy!!  there are many way to get and feel happiness..

    ----yeah well i'll always hope that i will feel happy in every second in my lyfe..   but then i will always remember dis..
"everybody want to be HAPPY, nobody want to have PAIN...
but we cant get RAINBOW without having RAIN..."

there are many way to feel happy.. its ur decision either to be happy or not.. happinness is a journey not a destination.. all da best in ur journey to find the REAL happiness... back to basic where u can find ur very own happiness..starts right and ends with happy endings..:-)

  ++inspired by sumbody that always make me happy..eventhough that person is not around..thanx a lot for shining my day!